Today I have so much Joy! I am overwhelmed at God’s presence because it has been overflowing in my life. I just don’t know how to thank Him enough. This weekend has been so amazing. I have never felt so loved and cared for by God. I know that this week is no different from the weeks of the past.
Is this a time of praise and thanksgiving, is this a moment of celebration because of who he is? I am reminded of the song of Mary where she says, “My soul shall magnify the Lord!”. It is my prayer that He would always keep me sensitive to His movement in my life and in the lives of others.
I can not praise him enough. My life was a complete wreck about four years ago. It all started out of the blue. I had miss used money and didn’t understand how it should handled.
I lived on impulse and on what I thought I needed at the time. There was a moment when I knew that I was going to be chastened. I felt it coming like one of my grandmothers that could feel the storm approaching. Her bones would ache. There was a time when I cried out in my living room that God would allow me to know him, that he would let me experience His embrace. Being desperate for the presence of God will cause you to do this. The Bible says that out of the Overflow of the Heart the Mouth speaks.
I had tears in my eyes because I was desperate for him to do something in my life.
At that moment I had no idea what I was asking for. These three to four years have been a huge time of chastening and correction. I can remember times when I would get down on the floor and cry huge tears because I didn’t know how I was going to pay the next bill.
Things were piling up and I didn’t know what the next step would be. I can surely sit here and tell you that the verse where it says, “God is able to supply all your needs according to His riches in glory” is very true. I never went without a meal and I know he carried me through this time.
He has always been carrying through this life that I have been called to live. It is in the rough and scary times that we are more aware of this. Beth More says that you need to know who God and his word down into the marrow of your bones. The marrow of the bones is where our nutrition and rich blood is stored and manufactured. If I am wrong please correct me. However, it makes sense that she would want us to know the Word and God to that intensity.
You can tell others about the experiences that you have had and they might look at you funny. They may look away especially if what you are saying is hitting home and they want to deny that is it happening to them. When we talk about suffering many don’t care to talk about it because they are persuaded that life is supposed to be fun and as close to heaven as possible.
They don’t understand that where it says that we are coheirs of Christ that it means that we are also heirs of suffering as well.
God allows His children to suffer because He knows what the outcome will be. His heart probably breaks because of the pain we are experiencing. It broke His heart when Christ died on the cross for our sins but he knew the good that would come from it.
Let me ask you a question. Are you suffering at the moment and do you know of anyone who is? How are you making it? Are you more aware of the presence of God in your life? Are you sensitive to his Spirit?
I truly know that these times build a memorial of God and how he brought us out of it. He is not able to allow His children to live lives that are unchanged and the same.
He loves to much to leave us the way we are.
